An e-mail to a friend in Japan

It's hard to write an e-mail with the subject of "life," but yet not. I mean, isn't every e-mail about life? But more specifically, my life. Life in Germany is dragging on through the cold days and weeks of February where a cup of tea sitting on the windowsill in the warming sunshine is more of a welcoming ray of life on my cold, tired body than I could ever hope for. I sit and wait for the day when I can move back to the States. I think I'm ready. But I begin to miss Germany already. I really miss Germany when it was warm. But, you must take the bad with the good. News from home is scattered and blurry. I don't guess that people's lives have changed all that much, but I'm looking in on it like a TV show that I only watch every once in a while. Never establishing a real connection with the characters or being dragged in by the plot-line. I forget that this person kinda liked this person, or that these people were together, but in a bad sort of way, that this person is still looking for a job after being tragically laid off. I sometimes lose interest, but then, I can never really forget that I like watching it. The world turns again, and the sun is getting closer and closer to warming the part of the world that I call home. My days here are numbered, but that only gives me more inspiration to grow and learn and change as much as I can. I used to be afraid of changing and people not being able to relate to me anymore when I got home. But now, I embrace change. Positive change. Becoming more of an adult, but still keeping the spirit of fucked-up college days, drinking in the afternoon, sleeping at night and waking up to drink and party more in the early hours of the morning. People may not like the changes we go through in life, but then, it's another test of who your friends are and who can handle changes in people when they grow up and leave people behind. I wonder if I'm mature enough to cope with people's changing emotions and ideas and tastes. Do I scoff at people's decisions because they're inconsistent with what that person used to do.
Have you changed? Are we still friends? Do we even know each other anymore?